Beam Skills

So i'm back in high school again but in my old gymnastics gym that i used to go to as a child. We were at a meet, the boys and girls teams. I was up next on beam so I was warming up before my turn. One of the boys from the team came up to me and told me that he was very disappointed in my beam skills. Beam is my weakest event anyway so naturally this really shattered my confidence. I was very nervous now for my turn and before I even started my routine there was a crowd building around me. I started the routine after motioning to the judges and as I looked down all the people were staring at me and I almost fell. It was time for the dismount and I was shaking uncontrollably. I had struggled to get this right for a long time and it was now time to prove my accomplishments. As I reached for the beam and kicked my legs into a handstand I fell. I had not kicked hard enough and therefore landed on the wrong side of the beam. I tried over and over but I could not make it. All the people laughed as they trickled away in the groups they had come with.